I welcome spring wholeheartedly, the thaw followed by nature’s regrowth, and renewal is always a beautiful comfort. There is a hopefulness in Spring.
The longer days give me the feeling of possibility, that there is enough time to do everything I want to do. The life-closing-in-on me shortness of the Winter days is replaced with increased productivity and more engagement with the outside world. Which means that while the Spring brings positives it is also a difficult time because it is the time of recovery.
The winter takes me down to my lowest, darkest, numbness, and it can be hard to adjust to the re-emergence of the higher, lighter, feeling parts of myself.
I have learned so much this winter and have spent a lot of time alone, going inward, and being self-reflexive. I have identified some of the less favourable attributes of myself and have brought those things into my awareness.
Winter was a time of breaking habits, resolving past issues, and developing a healthier relationship with my thoughts. But it also brought some endings that were really difficult to process. I had applied to Master’s school for English and was not accepted which left me feeling lost and with a future before me that is entirely uncertain.
Going inward, growing, and managing the shadowy parts of myself has been incredibly painful at times. I often felt lost.
I felt lost because while I was focusing, and still am, on my internal world, I was neglecting my external self. With little energy to spare for others, I could not put much effort into my relationships with other people. Springs brings a revival of my interest in being social. I will open myself up to spending more time ith others or in the community, but I have become so accustomed to being alone it feels like I don’t know how to do that anymore.
I stopped practicing yoga on a regular basis and wouldn’t go out for walks or feed myself properly. Now that it is Spring I will have to expand my daily routine to incorporate making healthy meals, practicing yoga, and going for walks, to rebuild my physical health.
The Spring represents a time of unknown expansion in other areas of my life.
I will have to find work, move, and those changes will bring with it new people and new environments.
With all the endings I have undergone this Winter, there are so many beginnings ahead of me and the prospect of the unknown is both exciting and terrifying.
Lune Innate is a Reiki Practitioner YouTuber. I discovered her a few months go and I find hr to be a very genuine and comforting spirit. Her Reiki online sessions have been invaluable to me.
I found her at a time when I needed healing the most.
This video is dedicated to Spring, Growth, and Expansion so I thought it was appropriate for the things I wanted to talk about today.
“Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but – I hope – into a better shape.”
― Charles Dickens, Great Expectations